falling...
falling?? why not coming to or getting to or even becoming... i know what you're thinking...
"it just doesn't sound right... "... can't blame you really... kasi it doesn't sound right talaga...
they used the verb falling to describe love for a reason... and a good reason it is at that...
imagine yourself standing on the ledge of a ten foot, wait no make it twenty, no i take it back i guess try to make it 50... or more... depends on your mood... and on your suicidal capabilities... ahehehehe...
how would you decide to jump? you definitely won't stand on the ledge... and take a look at the pavement 50+ floors below... you won't sit on the ledge and slowly slide yourself... easing your way out of the ledge as you do in poolsides... so how?
*you stand straight...
*close your eyes... or also another option is to look up at the beautiful night sky... again your choice...
*spread your arms...
*well... say your parting words.. -if you have any-
*take a deep breath... a huge gulp... of saliva... -gross, yeah i know... but it happens...-
*then... well... just... take a step, a leap... a jump... you do have lots of options... ahehehe... you could even go out in style if you want... trully your choice...
~~uhmmm... no... this is no crash course on the best way to kill yourself... just am trying to prove a point here... now...
back to the topic... stand straight... make a decision... come on... nakakita ka na ba ng nagpapakamatay na sobrang desidido?? as in sobra?? kung may ganun edi sana... pag-akyat dun... la nang kaartehan... talon na kung talon... lalandi pa eh! ahehehe...
same with love... i don't blame you for having hesitations nor second thoughts... normal yan... a lot of obstacles and hindrances may come your way... pero... if it is what you feel... fight for it... whether with your eyes closed or with it open... same way... you'll fall how you're supposed to... ahehehe... spread your hand... welcome it... feel it invigorate every inch of you... and while you fell that you are atleast 40% sane... say your parting words coz... it could really be the last people could talk to you before you commit yourself... take a deep breath... then... go...
now the hard part... yeah well... everything is hard in this kind of thing so... anyway...
when you fall... what happens next? i mean... you take risk... you welcome uncertainty... then what?
this is the part you can't control... will he/she catch you? imagine yourself... falling... falling... then... -splat-... guess what... he/she doesn't care... or that person would be the one to call 911... meaning he'd try to help and try to make it up to you in a way that he/she feels he/she could... but fact still remains that he/she had no intention of catching you in the first place...
but if that person does catch you... it's like that person gave you anothet chance to live... and you know things will be better...
leap of faith... plunge into uncertainty... falling in love...
pare... in a way they are synonymous to each other... now... go figure kung bakit ako kinakabahan.... haiii... ahehehehe
inafairness... d na nga ganung uncertain ung akin eh... i mean... sigurado xa eh... ehh... bat parang may hinahanap pa ko?? shox... labo ko...
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